| just to see |
[Oct. 29th, 2008|08:27 pm] |
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| |  was very hungry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | embrace - Pnau | ] |
AHHHHHRRGH!!!!H!! it's all coming at me too fast!
i almost lost the plot today; infact yes i did. i must remember the devastating effect me not eating has.
i write this now so that hopefully in a week ill look back and say "HA, i cant believe i thought i wouldn't get it all done"
because there is no other option than to have it all done. this feels like the god damn hsc again. |
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| just a night |
[Oct. 17th, 2008|09:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | drunkasbrofullysick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ladyhawke - dusk till dawn | ] |
So this is just me, theres not gonna be any pictures this entry - just felt like writing something. i had a pretty good day today. i think i procrastinated a bit by sharpening and doing practice joins but i think ill go into the workshop on sunday and catch up.
Went to happy hour in the art school early today after a late lunch. i brought some home-brew instead of buying the $2 beers. At 6 rode my bike to an exhibition opening in bradden for some free wine. i always make it my mission to get to know the girl serving wine at exhibition openings - seeing as she is going to see a lot of me. i was a bit dissapointed with this one cos they didnt have nibbles. there was some fucking moving poetry there though.
went to Amy's for dinner afterwards and watched wipe out then headed home on my bike in the dark with no lights. i didnt know the way (and i was a little tipsy) so i followed my nose to the city. the main part was heading to light - if i could see light it was a good thing.
i think its pretty early for a night to end so i may watch "control" (lent to me by Ally) after this entry.
So strange lately; i feel as if the ocean is calling me. i have also been searching for a new ocean-worthy watch. the accumation of 18 years:- to buy a beautiful watch and take to the seas. this passion is clawing from inside of me for some reason lately. i think i would have become a pirate in another life.
Another passion i have discovered is making tools. lucky for me a tool maker is coming into my workshop next week to give as a bit of a course in it. i am very excited. there are so many things i want to make... |
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| Help yourself before helping others? |
[Aug. 29th, 2008|08:24 pm] |
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| |  content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Air - Universal Traveler | ] |
I have had this overwhelming urge to help other people lately, not money-wise, but through chores and tasks. Im not sure what it means.
Workshop philosophy:
#1
Mrs Beaton's Rabbit Pie;
step 1 - get your rabbit
#2
student piece
teaching piece
master piece
#3
Only through self-acceptance do we avoid frustration - and thus produce a good joint
( Photos awaited (from new phone) ) |
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| an endless trail of thought |
[Jun. 3rd, 2008|07:31 pm] |
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so i sit here. the music is probably way too loud. i dont care - i cant tell - ive had too many drinks anyway. entering that state of mind where you think too much but think too little. contemplating the future - way too far ahead. so far it becomes depressing. and then i think about the now. the now that went so quickly - too quickly. have i just wasted another 6 months of my precious life? i go to bed at night and i have an overwhelming feeling of lonliness in the world. im so detatched from everything and everyone. like im trying to make a connection but its never real. i decide that its just starting again. maybe it will become another 5 years before i discover doubtful happiness. i need my passion. i need to appreciate the truths in my life. it cant be depression. i dont feel depression. im not that person - i just live and tell myself that i live simply, only looking two steps forward - im no chess player. insecurities so strong, the only way i can see is finding the passion. i hope it starts when i go into my workshop. maybe its been to long that im doubting or maybe im just be stupid and ignoring whats in front of me - the thing i swore to look at. but for now its just limbo. im nowhere. the infinite nothingness. like ive confined myself, disconecting from my family and friends. but they are still there as strong as ever. then why am i convincing myself that they are just fasades - imaginary connections. no. my family is strong. sometimes i think about my existence - our existence - too hard to explain - its more of a thought - a concept - an idea. how would it be if all these thoughts and feelings were simply demolished/wiped from existence. blank. isnt that what we are? isnt that existence? thats what i tell myself. that, and the passing of time. and then, in the end, i think "what stupid thoughts you have been having rhys. do something worth while" - but then; "it was your fault in the first place". |
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| Pin hole camera |
[May. 19th, 2008|11:45 pm] |
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| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Low Rider - War | ] |
Last week was taking photos with pin hole cameras. I made mine from scratch using black cardboard and lots of electrical tape and blu-tack but most people used anything from bike types to barbie dolls to computer mouses to tea pots - silly art students. Here are (photos of) some of the photos mine took which i fully developed that actually turned out. The hole in the camera has a 0.15mm radius. Exposure times seemed to range anywhere from 30 seconds to 6 minutes depending on how the camera, Veronica, felt.
They are photos and not scans because i just got myself a digital camera which makes me happy... even if it is not red.
Dan might be visiting me this weekend from wagga. Im so excited that im gonna have some one to drink my collection of fine red wines with that im gonna go down to big W when i get a chance and buy him a $7 pillow to make his stay slightly more comfortable.
Off to some farm tomoro to do life drawing class in an outdoor environment - i see it as an excuse to wear my shearer jeans, cowboy hat and flanny. Uni is good cos its art school; how can it not be. |
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| Canberra and wonderful gay n u |
[Apr. 12th, 2008|06:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | drunknessness | ] |
| [ | music |
| | takin' all day - the cruel sea | ] |
ok so im here in canberra, doing a bachelor of design arts at ANU school of art. and this is my first post in a shit long time.
so basically i havnt even gone into my major workshop here yet (timber furniture) as i have been doing the compulsory design core classes which run for the first semester. these are composed of (per week):
5 hours life drawing (yes, this is with naked models)
5 hours design core (technical drawing and model making)
5 hours 2D (arty farty shit where u just make collages and anything you want really)
5 hours theory (lectures and tutes at the national gallery of australia)
and after this first semester i get to scrap the top and go into my workshop WOO HOO (they also add computer 3d modeling to the course).
just a note; the glass making workshop here is insane. the glass students are a bit bitchy but thats cos their brains are fried standing in front of kilms all day. i got to cast one of my objects from design core in glass (its still liquid atm at 800degrees c; it will be done in 2 weeks).
and now for some random pictures:
in other news, i bought my other 400Watt PA speaker; this means i now have STEREO...Excessively loud stereo! i use it for everything. my first speaker was named kashim, but now the second is veronica so kashim is now a girl for the sake of them being sisters. IM NOT WEIRD SHUDDUP
and i could buy it cos i work at a fancy bakery/cafe! woo hoo! its very scary though. there are plagues of customers and i have no fucking clue whats in anything let alone what its called and i have no clue how to work the cash register. but i get by... today i knocked off 10 minutes early (according to my watch it was 12) however it was not as the boss pointed out as i ran into him getting my stuff. oh and im also that guy who over charges you or gives you less change than you should have.
oh yeah and my living situation is: i live in a 5 bedroom share apartment in 'unilodge' on campus and about 2 minutes from the centre shops of canberra (thats only if u have to walk upside down using 2 fingers) i live with 2 country boys, one from Forbes (Dan; he drives me everywhere. i use all the ink on his printer, play COD4 on his computer and i tell him how much better my stereo is than his), one from Griffith (chris, he's down the other end and cooks most of the time cos he dont like washing) chris is also dating - Jac, who is the girl in the house; avoids me cos she thinks im sexist and stupid and tends to like arguing with me; i like her though. she and chris (and dan) are very very into dirt biking off road and have all this dirt bike gear and armor around. the last but not least is Yy, the azn guy from singapore i think... hes been in the army there and is like 26 i think. he is very azn hehehe i like him alot, he got me the job at the bakery and i think he thinks im racist and annoying.
for entertainment we stream our computers to the mod chipped x box in the living room which is attatched to a wireless router.
... and i drink beer...with dan.
the end.
hoping to head to sydney on the 20th for a few days. till then its work work... |
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| Just some stuff |
[Jan. 31st, 2008|11:13 pm] |
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So like here are a few pics from get together in the back of Danz crib
ALSO! a bonus:
special photos from the surprise leon collection never before seen.
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| Christine, a retrospect... |
[Jan. 31st, 2008|10:35 pm] |
This post is dedicated to the short lived friendship between a girl, we all briefly met and learned to love on the second blue mountains trip. A girl who, dissapeared into the shades of unknown as suddenly as she had emerged. A girl named Christine...
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| Introducing, dan. as woman. |
[Jan. 26th, 2008|04:37 pm] |
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| PHAT PHOTO POST |
[Oct. 1st, 2007|05:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | joyful and teary | ] |
| [ | music |
| | In the fade - QOTSA | ] |
welcome to 2007. from the lil eye of a phone and the aid of rhys' retarded mind.
BUT EQUALLY IF NOT MOSTLY - i owe a wonderful year to some very special women and lesbians (see under cut for confession) |
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| COOGEE |
[Oct. 1st, 2007|04:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | procrastinating | ] |
| [ | music |
| | 3's & 7's - QOTSA | ] |
It twas a while back. and dan posted about it. but i am the one with picks, and pics there shall be:
All taken on rhys' phone.
even those who dont like the beach; had some fun.
top day. hope to do it again. Keep an eye out for rhys' phone post (a years selected worth of photos taken spur of moment on my phone) will make for a good and memorable and slightly homo entry. |
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| The mountains |
[Apr. 14th, 2007|12:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | Manly | ] |
SO YEAH i went up to the blue mountains, some place called hazelbrook on thursday with leon, chris, josh and dan. it was Dan's place; no parents. just 5 boys. a lot of beer, ciggarettes, rollerskates, and a chainsaw. We got in touch with our inner man by getting drunk together and talking about bloke stuff. everyone took pictures on their phones; awwed by the amount of empty bottles we had lined up along the balcony, but i dont have any photos of the sorts with me. im waiting on Leon's post. i do however have two videos. please enjoy them.
Please watch http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jgmet8QWn_0 Now.
Yes we all gave eachother head...(on our beer) but chris was being a bit left out. dont they say you shouldnt drink before 6? we were through half our grog before 6. it was then decided that we should go cold turkey till 6pm. It was pretty hard but we got there when i secretly set my watch forward a bit. shhhhhh. no one wanted to question it.
Please watch http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nHGj7QEUf-o Now.
Oh Leon. look hes gonna die. i slept with that chainsaw under my bed. this video could have been more dramatic. Make sure u can here the sound on both.
Hope everyone's holidays are tops so far! |
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| EASTER |
[Apr. 9th, 2007|05:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | : ) | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sir Psycho Sexy - chili's | ] |
OK so today was pretty good. i woke up latish. feasted on 'Belle Fleur' chocolate and leftovers and milk. then after sitting around i started setting up to start my painting for my Art BOW (body of work). that was interrupted when the family decided to go yumcha for lunch. naturally i dropped everything to feast on chickens feet, beef tripe, and coconut jelly (my favourites). On the way hom i was baught a bottle of turps for my painting (yay). i deserved it, as moments before i had just been called a dickhead and arsehole by my parents indirectly to my sister. at times like that i laugh and think to myself how funny it is that im always ganged up on and life is great.
Once returned it was the paintings moment. i actually only really painted about an hour and a half today. but i think i got a fair bit done. im using oils for the first time. they are pretty cool but pretty messy and gay. i decided to photo my progress and post it; see what reactions i get i thought. im painting a photograph i took ( in London) and editted. its a very working progress and im not sure what ill do with it but ill know when i do it:
yes i paint in my downstairs living room around everyone. i wear a white coat that makes me look slightly mad when i paint. holidays are great. i think all the azn tea has made me super relaxed, i might even reach nirvana... (ha sif, hsc suks) |
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| DIVERSITYYY |
[Mar. 21st, 2007|08:12 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crappy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Outsider - A perfect circle | ] |
Diversity day suked balls
i waited a whole day, doing shit all, to perform a song, that no one even clapped for. 3 year 11 bands won the talent quest, making us the shittest band there. never again.
some stupid yr 11 girls serving the $2 plates of food gave me like two little peices and said if i wanted more i had to do the chicken dance. i said fuck off and told some old hag that they werent givin my moneys worth. she said yeah thats about $2 worth. looking at other ppl working away with about 10 times the amount i said fuck off again and walked away. i was hungry. i dont like these yr 11's one bit...
i dont know what the audience heard. but according to sound desk; "everything that could go wrong, went wrong"
srsly shit. i got some crap hair cut yesterday and it cost way to much. now im broke. i just wish i had my necklace and sunnies back.
exams start monday. i havnt started anything. art major is looking pretty no where. same with dt. |
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| IMA SLEEZE |
[Mar. 18th, 2007|07:22 pm] |
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| | yummeh | ] |
me and nicole ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) mr_deranged spent fun time at her house today. we ate migoreng and katz. like this one;
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| HOLEYMOFOAZAITS RHYS |
[Mar. 1st, 2007|07:30 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | BEDROOM. MY COMPUTER | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | this is my computer | ] |
| [ | music |
| | qotsa - lost art. im singing this. | ] |
This is mr_absence 'z questions and my answer. yas it has been a long time.. IF YOU DONT REALLY WANT TO READ IT though it will insight your life unbeleivably. then you may SKIP TO END if ur really that kind of person. b cos there is moreish
1. Ok, I'm lazy and giving you one of the questions I gave Nicole: Top five bands of all time and why you like them.
you assume i am a music fellow. i just PLAY and SING music. i dont listen to it. so i dont really know much bands. i like lots of songs though, so i assume by band you mean its ok to put artists. i would say (1) QUEENS OF THE STONE AGE. i want more bands like these guys. (2)errrrm super grass. all their songs ive listend to are awsome. (3)ben folds. im a peanist. hehe. (4)fountains of wayne. pop rock wooo! its catchy (5)red hot chili (5)muse (5)jamiroquai (5)coldplay (5)hilltop hoods (5)jeff buckley
err, you get the idea. im trying to find more hard but good rock. recomend some bands. some guy called jake said cog? i think? blah
2. If you were a toilet-brush...... what colour toilet brush would you be?
RED, no wait, PINK (pink is a light red...this is a stupid question...)
3. What's one of your earliest memories from childhood?
WELL for starters i dont remember much of my childhood. it was forced out for some reason. but i was very different. i remember tearing around the house. "the nature of rhys was irrepressable" it was said. i remember getting really depressed at this school called dobroid point where i was bullied and my teacher hated me. so some fantastic adults who beleived in me made a place for me in summer hill. im sure they regretted it alot cos i was unleashed onto a more respectable school, oh and i remember punching jenifer in the face. the nature of rhys had to be supressed. so i remember going to some child counciler. where i played in this mad sand box while she asked me questions. the rest is a blurr. but im shy these days. they sealed the demon fox it seemed. yeah sry about whole life story there...
4. What do you imagine your life will be like when you're forty years old?
Ummm. i wanna be sitting on a couch watching anime, with a beautiful wife, perhaps ten years younger? serving me beer. and would never dream of cheating on me!... cos i was really sexy. and on weekends i would do casual work for a mens underwear designer brand.
5. What song would you want played at your funeral?
i supose u want me to come up with something catchy or at least comical. well im sorry cos i know of no such song title. at my funeral a famous person will play toccata and fuge in D minor. and everyone will party cos there will be alcohol (not a wake. it will actually be my funeral)
ANYWAY ONTO MY POST
i need comments for this one please time is drawing short. GIVE ME MY JERSEY NAME. i have no idea what to get on mine. help is a needed. and if some one suggests something you like feel free to say how great it is. thank youz.
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