Rhys

just to see

2008-10-29T09:33:25Z

AHHHHHRRGH!!!!H!! it's all coming at me too fast!

i almost lost the plot today; infact yes i did. i must remember the devastating effect me not eating has.

i write this now so that hopefully in a week ill look back and say "HA, i cant believe i thought i wouldn't get it all done"
because there is no other option than to have it all done. this feels like the god damn hsc again.

just a night

2008-10-17T10:44:42Z

So this is just me, theres not gonna be any pictures this entry - just felt like writing something. i had a pretty good day today. i think i procrastinated a bit by sharpening and doing practice joins but i think ill go into the workshop on sunday and catch up.

Went to happy hour in the art school early today after a late lunch. i brought some home-brew instead of buying the $2 beers. At 6 rode my bike to an exhibition opening in bradden for some free wine. i always make it my mission to get to know the girl serving wine at exhibition openings - seeing as she is going to see a lot of me. i was a bit dissapointed with this one cos they didnt have nibbles. there was some fucking moving poetry there though.

went to Amy's for dinner afterwards and watched wipe out then headed home on my bike in the dark with no lights. i didnt know the way (and i was a little tipsy) so i followed my nose to the city. the main part was heading to light - if i could see light it was a good thing.

i think its pretty early for a night to end so i may watch "control" (lent to me by Ally) after this entry.

So strange lately; i feel as if the ocean is calling me. i have also been searching for a new ocean-worthy watch. the accumation of 18 years:- to buy a beautiful watch and take to the seas. this passion is clawing from inside of me for some reason lately. i think i would have become a pirate in another life.

Another passion i have discovered is making tools. lucky for me a tool maker is coming into my workshop next week to give as a bit of a course in it. i am very excited. there are so many things i want to make...

Help yourself before helping others?

2008-08-29T11:20:54Z

I have had this overwhelming urge to help other people lately, not money-wise, but through chores and tasks. Im not sure what it means.

Workshop philosophy:
#1
Mrs Beaton's Rabbit Pie;
step 1 - get your rabbit
#2
student piece
teaching piece
~~master piece~~
#3
Only through self-acceptance do we avoid frustration - and thus produce a good joint

comp studies

2008-08-05T08:41:14Z

i gots mad photoshop skillz

An average day at the school of art

2008-06-03T10:09:02Z

who knows how long she was standing there. she was actually kind of hot, when she smiled, when offered a coffee.

an endless trail of thought

2008-06-03T09:50:44Z

so i sit here. the music is probably way too loud. i dont care - i cant tell - ive had too many drinks anyway. entering that state of mind where you think too much but think too little. contemplating the future - way too far ahead. so far it becomes depressing. and then i think about the now. the now that went so quickly - too quickly. have i just wasted another 6 months of my precious life? i go to bed at night and i have an overwhelming feeling of lonliness in the world. im so detatched from everything and everyone. like im trying to make a connection but its never real. i decide that its just starting again. maybe it will become another 5 years before i discover doubtful happiness. i need my passion. i need to appreciate the truths in my life. it cant be depression. i dont feel depression. im not that person - i just live and tell myself that i live simply, only looking two steps forward - im no chess player. insecurities so strong, the only way i can see is finding the passion. i hope it starts when i go into my workshop. maybe its been to long that im doubting or maybe im just be stupid and ignoring whats in front of me - the thing i swore to look at. but for now its just limbo. im nowhere. the infinite nothingness. like ive confined myself, disconecting from my family and friends. but they are still there as strong as ever. then why am i convincing myself that they are just fasades - imaginary connections. no. my family is strong. sometimes i think about my existence - our existence - too hard to explain - its more of a thought - a concept - an idea. how would it be if all these thoughts and feelings were simply demolished/wiped from existence. blank. isnt that what we are? isnt that existence? thats what i tell myself. that, and the passing of time. and then, in the end, i think "what stupid thoughts you have been having rhys. do something worth while" - but then; "it was your fault in the first place".

Pin hole camera

2008-05-19T14:05:47Z

Last week was taking photos with pin hole cameras. I made mine from scratch using black cardboard and lots of electrical tape and blu-tack but most people used anything from bike types to barbie dolls to computer mouses to tea pots - silly art students. Here are (photos of) some of the photos mine took which i fully developed that actually turned out. The hole in the camera has a 0.15mm radius. Exposure times seemed to range anywhere from 30 seconds to 6 minutes depending on how the camera, Veronica, felt.

one of the three cameras i made (Gertrude and Georgina didnt perform to standard on the day)

this how it opens so i can get film in and out in dark room. Its sealed with electrical tape. i love the stuff.

They are photos and not scans because i just got myself a digital camera which makes me happy... even if it is not red.
Dan might be visiting me this weekend from wagga. Im so excited that im gonna have some one to drink my collection of fine red wines with that im gonna go down to big W when i get a chance and buy him a $7 pillow to make his stay slightly more comfortable.

Off to some farm tomoro to do life drawing class in an outdoor environment - i see it as an excuse to wear my shearer jeans, cowboy hat and flanny. Uni is good cos its art school; how can it not be.

Canberra and wonderful gay n u

2008-04-12T09:47:21Z

ok so im here in canberra, doing a bachelor of design arts at ANU school of art. and this is my first post in a shit long time.
so basically i havnt even gone into my major workshop here yet (timber furniture) as i have been doing the compulsory design core classes which run for the first semester. these are composed of (per week):
5 hours life drawing (yes, this is with naked models)
5 hours design core (technical drawing and model making)
5 hours 2D (arty farty shit where u just make collages and anything you want really)
5 hours theory (lectures and tutes at the national gallery of australia)

and after this first semester i get to scrap the top and go into my workshop WOO HOO (they also add computer 3d modeling to the course).

just a note; the glass making workshop here is insane. the glass students are a bit bitchy but thats cos their brains are fried standing in front of kilms all day. i got to cast one of my objects from design core in glass (its still liquid atm at 800degrees c; it will be done in 2 weeks).

and now for some random pictures:

what i eat in the mornings. its really cheap and its aldi's. i have no say in the shopping. im a student now. everything is budget.

veiw outside the door of the apartment. dont be fooled. its about 120m to the end no kidding.

blurry kitchen (note the use of icecream containers for storing and serving, also the recycling made up of beer. i took out 3 boxes of it the other day; made me look like the biggest alco, then again maybe i am. down side is its pretty much drinking alone.

Dan and Yy watching TV and being blurry (view from kitchen)

entering my room. (its different now. heaps better. lots more posters on the wall and also an extra speaker).

theres also no boxes as i have officially unpacked now.

a shoe made out of cardboard (2D work, yes this is my uni work)

a book with grass in it. it sits on my window sill and i water it - its a mutual relationship. yes, this is once again my uni work.

and thats all i got for images cos i dont actually have a camera and my phone doesnt talk to my computer anymore.

in other news, i bought my other 400Watt PA speaker; this means i now have STEREO...Excessively loud stereo! i use it for everything. my first speaker was named kashim, but now the second is veronica so kashim is now a girl for the sake of them being sisters. IM NOT WEIRD SHUDDUP

and i could buy it cos i work at a fancy bakery/cafe! woo hoo! its very scary though. there are plagues of customers and i have no fucking clue whats in anything let alone what its called and i have no clue how to work the cash register. but i get by... today i knocked off 10 minutes early (according to my watch it was 12) however it was not as the boss pointed out as i ran into him getting my stuff. oh and im also that guy who over charges you or gives you less change than you should have.

oh yeah and my living situation is: i live in a 5 bedroom share apartment in 'unilodge' on campus and about 2 minutes from the centre shops of canberra (thats only if u have to walk upside down using 2 fingers) i live with 2 country boys, one from Forbes (Dan; he drives me everywhere. i use all the ink on his printer, play COD4 on his computer and i tell him how much better my stereo is than his), one from Griffith (chris, he's down the other end and cooks most of the time cos he dont like washing) chris is also dating - Jac, who is the girl in the house; avoids me cos she thinks im sexist and stupid and tends to like arguing with me; i like her though. she and chris (and dan) are very very into dirt biking off road and have all this dirt bike gear and armor around. the last but not least is Yy, the azn guy from singapore i think... hes been in the army there and is like 26 i think. he is very azn hehehe i like him alot, he got me the job at the bakery and i think he thinks im racist and annoying.

for entertainment we stream our computers to the mod chipped x box in the living room which is attatched to a wireless router.
... and i drink beer...with dan.

the end.

hoping to head to sydney on the 20th for a few days. till then its work work...

JJ's card on JJ's request

2008-04-09T08:04:19Z

i think u explained once but i obviously forgot what the hell 133T was.
this card made me laugh for quite a while the other day, i wish i could identify the date though.

ps. i did notice from the indentations on the front that you wrote the address as 'helston park' when mailing it to nic

...and with me this card will stay.

-rhys.

Just some stuff

2008-01-31T12:18:21Z

So like here are a few pics from get together in the back of Danz crib

Biker-maya

pretty much just me

ALSO! a bonus:
special photos from the surprise leon collection never before seen.

NEW ZEALAND

2008-01-31T12:08:03Z

Go check my 3 videos (touring new zealand)! go see eclypse01 vids on youtube yo.

(ps. part 3 is my favourite)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jd-LXar2hkg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nMttJDrSkV8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4VOxgZskYr4

Christine, a retrospect...

2008-01-31T11:52:42Z

This post is dedicated to the short lived friendship between a girl, we all briefly met and learned to love on the second blue mountains trip. A girl who, dissapeared into the shades of unknown as suddenly as she had emerged. A girl named Christine...

(Note above: possible sighting at Canton beach holiday park)

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2008-01-26T06:15:13Z

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PHAT PHOTO POST

2007-10-01T07:36:35Z

welcome to 2007. from the lil eye of a phone and the aid of rhys' retarded mind.

1 hour before graduation...somewhere deep in the heart of Hamish's house. The tension was brewing NOT

we are gonna miss niques - a strange little yr 11 girl who hangs around us cos she has no other friends. WE LOVE MONIQUE!!!!!!!!!!!

I have started a hat trend cos im cool. may the legend of hat boy live on forever at Schols.

MEANWHILE or should i say prior to this inspiring get together, there was... a whole lot of random shit:

Jessez back LOL11 that scar is from acid. nuff said.

and so Josh scaled mount unscaleable. the one rhys stood at the bottom of trying to do what man shouldnt.

local pirate

there was a lot of gays at our school

UNSW lions doing what they do best... on sum ones stomach

Dan was frequently attacked by his major work

one day in the canteen...

emo jean shopping is an emo and bonding experience

we were well equipped at BWB *tear*

no comment

rhysina at her best

it will never be over.

what will never be JP's (in my home)

lol1

another gay. geez theyre everywhere

i found a religion.

just after walking out of the video game symphony; one of the greatest moments of our lives to here from mario like that.

the day we cloned ourselves.

Thats it from me. my world only gets better everyday and i have everybody around me to thank for that

thank you.

i will miss some things at BWB. but i know that the next years gonna be better.

love. heartfelt rhys.

BUT EQUALLY IF NOT MOSTLY - i owe a wonderful year to some very special women and lesbians (see under cut for confession)

Thank you darlingest nicole and the cantsyde crew who are toppest girls ive met to date. their non-inclusion in the photographs is purely due to the fact they werent on my phone in the first place and that i didnt want to look stalkerish. Rhys hearts you.

COOGEE

2007-10-01T07:03:18Z

It twas a while back. and dan posted about it. but i am the one with picks, and pics there shall be:

Ridin' the mark train

mmmm yeah...

All taken on rhys' phone.
even those who dont like the beach; had some fun.
top day. hope to do it again. Keep an eye out for rhys' phone post (a years selected worth of photos taken spur of moment on my phone) will make for a good and memorable and slightly homo entry.

The mountains

2007-04-14T02:06:08Z

SO YEAH i went up to the blue mountains, some place called hazelbrook on thursday with leon, chris, josh and dan. it was Dan's place; no parents. just 5 boys. a lot of beer, ciggarettes, rollerskates, and a chainsaw. We got in touch with our inner man by getting drunk together and talking about bloke stuff. everyone took pictures on their phones; awwed by the amount of empty bottles we had lined up along the balcony, but i dont have any photos of the sorts with me. im waiting on Leon's post. i do however have two videos. please enjoy them.

Please watch http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jgmet8QWn_0 Now.

Yes we all gave eachother head...(on our beer) but chris was being a bit left out. dont they say you shouldnt drink before 6? we were through half our grog before 6. it was then decided that we should go cold turkey till 6pm. It was pretty hard but we got there when i secretly set my watch forward a bit. shhhhhh. no one wanted to question it.

Please watch http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nHGj7QEUf-o Now.

Oh Leon. look hes gonna die. i slept with that chainsaw under my bed. this video could have been more dramatic. Make sure u can here the sound on both.

Hope everyone's holidays are tops so far!

EASTER

2007-04-09T07:38:07Z

OK so today was pretty good. i woke up latish. feasted on 'Belle Fleur' chocolate and leftovers and milk. then after sitting around i started setting up to start my painting for my Art BOW (body of work). that was interrupted when the family decided to go yumcha for lunch. naturally i dropped everything to feast on chickens feet, beef tripe, and coconut jelly (my favourites). On the way hom i was baught a bottle of turps for my painting (yay). i deserved it, as moments before i had just been called a dickhead and arsehole by my parents indirectly to my sister. at times like that i laugh and think to myself how funny it is that im always ganged up on and life is great.

Once returned it was the paintings moment. i actually only really painted about an hour and a half today. but i think i got a fair bit done. im using oils for the first time. they are pretty cool but pretty messy and gay. i decided to photo my progress and post it; see what reactions i get i thought. im painting a photograph i took ( in London) and editted. its a very working progress and im not sure what ill do with it but ill know when i do it:

yes i paint in my downstairs living room around everyone. i wear a white coat that makes me look slightly mad when i paint. holidays are great. i think all the azn tea has made me super relaxed, i might even reach nirvana... (ha sif, hsc suks)

DIVERSITYYY

2007-03-21T09:25:11Z

Diversity day suked balls

i waited a whole day, doing shit all, to perform a song, that no one even clapped for. 3 year 11 bands won the talent quest, making us the shittest band there. never again.

some stupid yr 11 girls serving the $2 plates of food gave me like two little peices and said if i wanted more i had to do the chicken dance. i said fuck off and told some old hag that they werent givin my moneys worth. she said yeah thats about $2 worth. looking at other ppl working away with about 10 times the amount i said fuck off again and walked away. i was hungry. i dont like these yr 11's one bit...

i dont know what the audience heard. but according to sound desk; "everything that could go wrong, went wrong"

srsly shit. i got some crap hair cut yesterday and it cost way to much. now im broke. i just wish i had my necklace and sunnies back.

exams start monday. i havnt started anything. art major is looking pretty no where. same with dt.

IMA SLEEZE

2007-03-18T08:29:05Z

me and nicole mr_deranged spent fun time at her house today. we ate migoreng and katz. like this one;

haha trickz yuz. this was nicoles idea you noes. not mine. you all have dirty dirty minds.

HOLEYMOFOAZAITS RHYS

2007-03-01T09:04:43Z

This is mr_absence 'z questions and my answer. yas it has been a long time.. IF YOU DONT REALLY WANT TO READ IT though it will insight your life unbeleivably. then you may SKIP TO END if ur really that kind of person. b cos there is moreish

1. Ok, I'm lazy and giving you one of the questions I gave Nicole: Top five bands of all time and why you like them.
you assume i am a music fellow. i just PLAY and SING music. i dont listen to it. so i dont really know much bands. i like lots of songs though, so i assume by band you mean its ok to put artists. i would say (1) QUEENS OF THE STONE AGE. i want more bands like these guys. (2)errrrm super grass. all their songs ive listend to are awsome. (3)ben folds. im a peanist. hehe. (4)fountains of wayne. pop rock wooo! its catchy (5)red hot chili (5)muse (5)jamiroquai (5)coldplay (5)hilltop hoods (5)jeff buckley
err, you get the idea. im trying to find more hard but good rock. recomend some bands. some guy called jake said cog? i think? blah

2. If you were a toilet-brush...... what colour toilet brush would you be?
RED, no wait, PINK (pink is a light red...this is a stupid question...)

3. What's one of your earliest memories from childhood?
WELL for starters i dont remember much of my childhood. it was forced out for some reason. but i was very different. i remember tearing around the house. "the nature of rhys was irrepressable" it was said. i remember getting really depressed at this school called dobroid point where i was bullied and my teacher hated me. so some fantastic adults who beleived in me made a place for me in summer hill. im sure they regretted it alot cos i was unleashed onto a more respectable school, oh and i remember punching jenifer in the face. the nature of rhys had to be supressed. so i remember going to some child counciler. where i played in this mad sand box while she asked me questions. the rest is a blurr. but im shy these days. they sealed the demon fox it seemed. yeah sry about whole life story there...

4. What do you imagine your life will be like when you're forty years old?
Ummm. i wanna be sitting on a couch watching anime, with a beautiful wife, perhaps ten years younger? serving me beer. and would never dream of cheating on me!... cos i was really sexy. and on weekends i would do casual work for a mens underwear designer brand.

5. What song would you want played at your funeral?
i supose u want me to come up with something catchy or at least comical. well im sorry cos i know of no such song title. at my funeral a famous person will play toccata and fuge in D minor. and everyone will party cos there will be alcohol (not a wake. it will actually be my funeral)

ANYWAY ONTO MY POST

i need comments for this one please time is drawing short. GIVE ME MY JERSEY NAME. i have no idea what to get on mine. help is a needed. and if some one suggests something you like feel free to say how great it is. thank youz.

.eclypse

MERRY EFFING CHRISTMAS

2006-12-25T04:53:19Z

i got a necklace for christmas? i neva would have thought. do my parents think im gay?...no. they dont. > Its heaps cool, pure silver chili with a single diamond in it (for men hot diamonds)
i treated myself to my own present a week prior: I GOT THE NEW ZELDA on gamecube (the Wii laggggzz) i finnished it yesterday. god holey mutha fuka shit mo its soo good.

i made some t shirts at maya's the other day. here is my favourite:

Im having lunch with the family atm. and im drinking a wine the same age i am! hope everyone is having a good time and enjoy the holidays

Rhys is back.. bite me biatches.

2006-12-02T08:32:24Z

I got back a while ago but i didnt post because there were too many pics (about 650); here is a selection (though still alot) of photos from italy, Edinburgh and London. I was staying in a villa in Cortona, the Tuscan town, for the majority of my stay. I visited many towns from there and also Rome for several days at the beggining and middle of trip. Funny enough i also met up with my sisters who are still over seas at the moment. I didnt see any of my italian family though, my mission to unite the 9 families and rule italy was a failure. better luck next time i guess. there are so many stories that im not gonna say any of them. let the photos do the talking.

Markets in Rome near hotel (centre basically)

Pantheon, roof, theres a big fat hole about 20m wide. and yes the rain does get in. biggest done concrete structure built by romans, they forgot the recipe and havnt been able to get conrete the same since (superior to even today)

view from hotel, rome

forum

me n my dad, st peters

A-STYLE! fuck i love these buses :)

self explainatory.

me, my muza, and my sis (eldest) at piazza in Siena

Stairs of dooom!!!!

SIENA (the colour is basically names after this place... or is it the other way round?)

sister masturbating

hehe, hi *giggle*

Some place in tuscany

RAPE!!11!

firenze, rainy

Ponte Vecio, firenze

Ponte vecio (not sure about spelling), Firenze, JEWELRY

the bitch had it coming

gold. mmm

night falls

Bacia Donne! (kiss the girls!) thus the street was names for its extremely narrow nature

We drank all theeeeessseee

me masturbating

WHITE TRUFFLES (thats err at about $3000 a kilo)

hehehe

The villa in cortona, tuscany

st peters

inside

still st peters, but from VERY TOP. it was a long climb

Gallery/museum, perhaps vatican?

London, tate modern gallery, SLIDE THINGOS (it was all freee!)

tate modern

london night

Scottland, land of haggis, Edinburgh.

me and Kurt Cobain.

Edinbough (so fukin windy!) i had to wear my Gore-tex

ohhhh gothic

TARTANS

Last goodbyes to Edinburgh

hyde park, SQUIRREL

weird lady attacking a goose

my future car

Last goodbyes to london. this pic has potential towards my B.O.W

hehe. so much advertisement

AND THATS RHYS' HAND PICKED SELECTION
now i must leave... CIAO CIAO!

tomoro - GONE

2006-10-04T09:45:13Z

i leave tomoro morning at 10.30. final goodbyes. i laid everything out i was gonna pack. realised how much i was lacking. then decided i would buy all my clothes over there. oh and a big thanks to maya for the book! ur pro, its the only thing i am bringing to read. sure hope its goood.
ciao nicole. i'll really miss you.

[this is a reminder for me, plz ignore]
(call ross or other about collecting stuff next term; 31st, 3rd, HSC bookz)

Announcement

2006-10-01T10:36:43Z

I WENT TO ANIMANIA TODAY. yeahh, it was pretty shit, not worth what u pay to get in but i had a cool time anyway. COSPLAY PISSES ME OFF. theres some pretty weird ppl out there. it also occered to me how perverted all this anime really is... i wonder some times why i like it...

i decided to enter the mario kart double dash gaming competition while i was there. i mean. why not.
first round i got paired up with a bunch of 9 yr olds. HA I KICKED THERE ARSES. SUCKED IN MOTHERFUCKERZ!!! yeah. *cough* onto final round it was me, this guy and this LITTLE SHITKUNT *punches pillow* and it was best of three.

he beat me first race and i was second...
i was first all 2nd race, then THE LITTLE SHIT KUNT *punches pillow* saved up all this stuff to kill me with in the last ten seconds...I CAME 2nd AGAIN

i hate little kids.

OK so the announcement. i will be leaving for italy this thursday. ima gonna stay in a villa in tuskany for while with my parentals. then i'm sorta just touring all over the place (mostly italy). i may also go to scottland and london (where i will shop for clothes like a girl). all this for about 5 weeks. missing out on about 4 weeks of next term (yr 12 for me). i will miss everyone greatly. especially my very special girl nicole. ill try n post on lj, and send emails. but i cant speak italian so i see how i go.

my good byes to those that will not see me again for that time. i will miss u all. i really will.

ciao.

rj_eclypse @ 2006-09-30T15:42:00

2006-09-30T05:50:29Z

passport:

terrorist.